Here and Now

It’s taken a couple months just for the reality to sink in that we’re here… we’re in the waiting phase of our adoption.

This is the part that people warned us about.

It’s impossible to predict how long it will take to be chosen by a birth mother and it’s totally out of our hands. There’s nothing we can do to influence our adoption so we wait . . . . and normal life carries on.

Our normal life now includes constant prayer for our birth mom and baby and when the phone rings across the room, I do some times give myself an extra second before picking it up to imagine that it’s our case worker calling with good news.

But most of the time, we’re not on the edge of our seat.

Our agency gave us a great waiting technique that has guided me through these past few months:

Be sure to enjoy the relationships you have now and invest in the life you have… right now.

I needed to hear that. The more I practice this way of thinking, the more I realize how good now really is. I am so eager for the day when we meet our child, but I don’t want to pine for the future as if my current life isn’t good enough. The relationships and life I have now is not only good enough, it’s filled to the brim with blessing and joy and to be anything less than grateful would be to squander these gifts from the Lord.

Yes, I long to hold my baby in my arms, but that’s not to say that my arms are empty. They are very, very full.

So when I answer the phone and the computer voice tells me I’ve won a free cruise, I hang up without a thought and get back to my normal life. I’m blessed and thankful right here and right now.

Thank you, everyone, who is praying and waiting alongside us! You are one of God’s blessings to us during this waiting phase.

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